Living with Memories

We glared at the moon again today holding hand in hand we walked the streets under the shining stars. It was cold and shivering but my hands in yours make me feel warm and cosier. Every time I see you smiling in the morning brings brightness to my day, the day for me starts when you say “good morning dear” with your bright broad smile. A cup of tea might energize me but the tea is nothing without you sitting beside me and looking at me with that question in your mind “what are your plans for today?”

 What does it even mean to have dinner on that table without you telling me your plans and work ideas for the day? Every afternoon must go by thinking what would you like to have today and after having your lunch did you say “wow, that was as awesome lunch, my stomach feels it, I love her hand made food”.

 My eyes are on the road and my house gate with two glasses of hot tea in front of me which vapours its heat waiting for you and the mind has a lot of questions “what all you did in your day at work?” you may have not missed me as you were busy with a lot of work but did you think of me before you reached to the house gate.

 Those chats on the easy chair with the snack and tea, the laugh that takes all my days’ pain and worries. To watch the Sun of the day say bye on our balcony with a smile saying “all the best for tomorrow I will see you again and bye have a good night”.

 It’s always fun to count that stars again and again though we know we can never end counting or we might never get the right number as there are millions of them out there, but to spend every single minute with you is like a billion stars around me and a single smile is a lifetime gift. You and I might be two but you and I make yummy us. To cuddle in your arms is like the whole world is holding me safe, warm.

I do see you again in the restaurant we first met, I love to walk with you in that park that we always did, I know what will you love to see me wearing and love to cook what you like.

 A heavy stone is still in my heart pushing me hard to break m up, it makes me weep like hell when I realized that your warm hand, bright smile, concerned face and cosier cuddle is not with me anymore, the day you just left and took of everything and did not even tell me bye. The day when your body became cold, tight and you close your eyes to not see me anymore, your heart stopped throwing me out of it which broke me into pieces. I try to patch myself up I try to not weep any more, as always you said I was strong and have to be strong no matter what.

 Yes, I love you, love you the most, I could never tell you ever when you were with me but without you, I love to die but, no I won’t, you left me but you left me your memories, now I just don't remember you but I still do live my life with you. Where ever I go you have left me yourself and with that, I breathe every day of my life.

 The world may have moved past you but my life and every breath will always move with you, even when you are not there I can feel your smile, that warm hand holds me when I walk alone, the sun says the same words for both of us and I still cuddle myself in you on our bed. God himself said if a part is you the other part is me and if I am here then where else can you be. Life taught me the love for the first time and life took it by the next but it did leave me with the feelings and memory, which will sustain me and my love with the best.