Suicide note

To the one reading this,

I started writing this letter having all sorts of negative thoughts and A mind that kept asking me to give up. To give up from my life, to give up from living and to give up my dreams. I feel constantly low and that I don't have a purpose in my life. Surfing through the internet about my situation, I realised I am in depression ~ The mental disease that is fatal if not treated accordingly. Well I was so sure that I am done in my life that I was ready to quit. But then I heard my mom calling me. She wanted my help in cleaning the cupboards as she couldn't find our old photo-albums. While I was helping her I found my drawing book that I used to portray my heart out on. It was full of colours and each page had a sketch of me with a different talent. I was everything a kid of 8 years can dream to be. Meanwhile, Maa found the albums she was looking for. We went through the photographs of me as a new born, to my first birthday, my first school day, and it went on. I could see the happiness of my parents. The Self I am today was burdened by mere obstacles of life that resides mostly in my mind, but my young self that was in the pictures went through more than this, he went through the falls, the fears, yet learned and grew. I learned that my life is important for me and I still have a lot of dreams to achieve. The purpose of writing this letter changed from a suicidal note of my loss to a note of my comeback. My old self taught me how I should be living & why I should be living; when my today's self asked me to quit. We all go through losses , heartbreaks, failures and a lot more as we grow up. But quitting over life isn't a solution for the problems. Our life is not only ours but our family's too.In case you feel low and couldn't help but think negatively, just know that you can distract yourself and direct your mind to something else. Feeling depressed is okay but don't choose to quit, because quitting would mean a failure of "YOU" as your kid self, which actually was full of life and dreams. If not for you, live for that kid. Survive and fight back like you used to play Mario. You will surely win one day.