Let seeee

It is another day, the sun is rising, I see squirrels out of the window, there is cold breeze, it’s November. I am still silent, may be this would be my last note to you, filled with guilt and regret. I don’t know how did I do that? How could I become so selfish? I know the decision of abortion was mine, to save us from the blames of society. You know it! Right? You wanted me to be happy, I wanted us to be safe.

I would recall it all, to make myself smile again for the last time, after all these days filled with sorrows. I am twenty four years old. I met you when I was just fourteen, I never knew I would end up to this! Maybe to me, this is the only way to continue my way peacefully, after ending up with a sound sleep forever. Don’t blame me as a traitor. I remember all of my promises, maybe in my next life I would be able to fulfill them. I have been avoiding you for so many days, I know! But darling, I can not even face my self in front of mirror. I have not stepped out of my house for last six months. This dark room kills me, bounded with the walls. I find nothing peaceful, no one to share my grief with. Life would take this turn was the unexpected thing. Do you remember how did we fall in love? The side hug. That was sudden, that was complete, to go straight to the heart. The first kiss, the first touch. The way we laugh, the way you look at me, all the things are running through my mind. I want to see a glance of the last time. Just do me a last favor, when I go, wrap me in that red saree. As I told you.

Get my best pictures framed, and hung them on the walls of my room, and yeah lastly, tear up this letter and move on in life.